food and texts

well, alone again tonight with happiness... jackson is staying at sanford's... happiness is sitting by the door waiting for her to come home... it's sad, but jackson knows and makes her choice... i think she's letting happiness go, knowing he's in his last year(s) and she has a huge fear of death and physical illness and this is one way of avoiding it... she's also in love, which clouds rational thinking, so both factors leave poor happiness without his mom most of the time... but she seems happier than she's been in many years, so how can we find fault with that :)

so we ate dinner... happiness had his prescription diet... i had clams casino and pizza and chocolate ice cream... yummy yum yum... we took another walk and then i opened jackson's bedroom door and he went in to sleep on his bedroom pillow... then i texted a few friends cuz i was feeling lonely too... one friend asked me to move in with her as a roommate but she lives to far away and the current living place plan is to sign a new lease in a new place with jackson for another year the end of january... but with her staying out so much i will start looking for more social life again... we'll just have to work out taking care of happiness together more...

loneliness is not always fun after all...