need lots of fillers

you see, logic will win out even exhausted and brain dead (or near it)... if i am going to kick some stats butt (as meaningless and sill as it may be), then looking back at today (from tomorrow), i see this blog needs a lot of fillers... this sort of entry probably wastes all of our time, so i ougt to apologize and yet, i never know just what might turn up in these sort of forced entries and sometimes some of the most profoundly revealing information (worth something to me, if only me) just seems to randomly emerge in entries that start out just to give posterity the impression that i've been writing every few hours or more all along...

once upon a time i did write much more... writing has always been my first creative love after singing (and singing is intrusive into others space so writing is the most often creative activity in this life)... therapy and friend, education and play, master and slave, mother and lover, so many way writing means so many things to me... back in the day, whatever that might have been, if i had an online blog i'd probably have posted a dozen entries a day at minimum and each entry would be five or ten times the length of the entries in this blog, at least... but those days of leisure were replaced by a life of a workaholic and that left a lot less time for free association and mind dumps and writing in general...

still, it turns me on...