goals are strange

especially when they are relatively meaningless... and it is definitely mostly silliness, especially when there may be nobody out there reading... though i know two of you still come by mostly regularly and i love you dearly for reminding me i am not alone in this aspect of this life, but that's another story, headspace and all, right?)... like if, say three days ago, i set a goal to reach 50,000 page views in this month of june i probably would have easily reached is... and if i set that goal today i probably will fall just short, but that is what makes the idea of setting the goal all that much more fun... do i want to spend the next six to eight hours (and some of the weekend) writing entries for this blog that are, well, babbling entries (as opposed to the natural entries that come when there is something to tell about the (e)thereal life in the momentary experience in the physical world that this blog was supposed to be created for)... maybe lol...

it would probably take about thirty more entries in these last few days to get the 700 or so page views that would set the 50,000 views mark and then what?... meaningless cuz the page views mostly come from referral spam and maybe 3-4 per entry actually come from actual real physical flesh and blood people like you... sometimes less, sometimes maybe a bit more... while i'd like to think a dozen or so of you out there check every entry, most of the regular readers (as in actual people) have drifted away and i believe there are two of you left who check on a relatively daily basis... feel free to let me know if you are not j or z, cuz i don't want to dis you and i definitely want to encourage you to spend some time with me here as often as you'd like...

anyway, if you've read all that, then thank you :)