cuz it's better than nothing

babbling here and imagining i am not as alone as i am... i set up dinner at golden corral for tomorrow night with a handful of friends and after that, we'll head to harpo's house to play cards... but tonight i feel like feeling lonely... i don't feel like friends or strangers, i feel like intimacy and i don't have any intimate friends or lovers or partners or whatever word we might use, so i am writing... and there are half dozen entries are already written and ready for upload so there will be entries uploaded after i fall asleep, which will hopefully be just after midnight but will likely be later than that...

and the words, writing the words, exploring the mind, the ideas and perspectives and opinions and thoughts and feelings that kinda sorta define me, at least for the moment... cuz you never know when the one might come along and read all this... but more is needed tonight cuz i want more... so i am watching the movie red which is sort of about the cia and spy stuff after an episode of castle that was about fake spy games that turned into a real murder, well, the tv is amusing me... imagining the people i am watching are real and part of my experience... imagining i am not alone and have some vital importance... cuz it's better than nothing...

narf :}