ok, drugs

yeah, i mentioned drugs in a less than evil way in the previous entry so i decided to provide my opinions on drugs cuz, after all, you want to know... and being relatively experienced in the actual effects and affects and prefects and etch-a-sketches of drugs through experimentation in this body (the cia really didn't like me telling them that when they asked, but hey, the truth shall set you free it you speak it just right... and i will leave you to wonder just how much truth and how much illusion is in this paragraph cuz, well, that's part of the fun of blogging and even more to the point, those who care ask and learn and why bother explaining anything to those who don't, cha know?), i can provide you with a perspective some may never know... so the dear super-repressed teacher on south park says drugs are bad, mok? with as much interrogative as statement... and i say, everything is bad if you abuse it... drugs are life... drugs are chemicals... chemicals are life... so the question becomes which drugs, i suppose and since the previous entry lead to this entry and was mentioned three drugs in particular, here is my take on those three...

lsd is a wonderful experience if you are ready for it... being ready for it includes being not afraid of yourself and not afraid of opening your mind and seeing things in ways that might scare you... if you can handle your own fear well, lsd is an amazing experience... however, if you are prone to anxiety, even slightly paranoid, doubt yourself, have low self-esteem, or in any way enjoy abusing yourself (including commonly excepted forms of self-abuse), then the probability of lsd providing you with what is commonly called a bad trip increases directly proportionately to how much you fear yourself or are prone to anxiety, are even slightly paranoid, doubt yourself, have low self-esteem, or in any way enjoy abusing yourself (including commonly excepted forms of self-abuse)...

mdma is an amazing experience, again, if you are ready for it... mda is sometimes found when obtaining mdma and mda is closer to lsd and so read the previous paragraph too because you can't always be sure you are getting pure mdma... pure mdma lets you relax and trust if you know how to and can relax and trust... trust does not mean let yourself be used or abused, so if you are not sure if you know how to trust (it starts with trusting yourself first before anyone else), then do not try mdma in public where someone might take advantage of you... even friends can take advantage of you if you are not aware of yourself... and again, if you are generally afraid, insecure, anxious, paranoid, half low self-esteem, or in any way abuse yourself, you will likely abuse yourself or be abused under the influence of mdma...

htc is an amazing experience with much less power than either lsd or mdma (or mda), again, if you are ready for it... being ready for it means the same as being ready to some extent the criteria above, but more being ready for the questions below...

and if you are ready for it does not mean you want to be ready for it... being ready to experience these chemicals means you are free of most common fear and insecurity, anxiety, paranoia, and self-abuses that the vast majority of humans are not free of... ask yourself how you would feel walking into a police station or talking to a police officer under the influence of any of these drugs... how would you feel about walking into a hospital and telling an emergency room nurse or doctor that you took these drugs?... how would you feel about sitting and talking with your mother or father under the influence?... and how would you feel about telling your mother or father that you are under the influence while you are under the influence?...

if the answer to any of these questions is no way! then think again, you are probably not ready or at least have a much higher risk of a bad experience...

the most important questions to ask yourself (and most seriously, you are a fool not to ask yourself {and answer honestly} before playing with these drugs) are... who do you trust to take you home and put you to bed if you are unconscious?... and less likely, but just as important who do you trust to get you to an emergency room if you are in physical distress and not able to get there by yourself?...

if the answer to either of these questions is no one, then stop and re-think the prior questions because you might have to take yourself to a hospital and if you are not ready to do that, you could die wherever you are... this is a real possibility anytime we ingest any chemical (heck, it's a possibility with food poisoning, though the probability is much lower with food than with street drugs)... remember that you don't know what sort of quality control the manufacturer of the drug you are buying from some stranger (and even if the seller is a friend, the source is almost always a stranger in an uninspected lab somewhere who is much more interested in making money than in health and safety or sanitation)... lsd or mdma or mda can too often contain ingredients not intended to be there, but deadly or at least stuff that can make you sick and need a doctor... this is why the readiness to face an emergency room is so important... and depending on where you live, the hospital may have to, by law, notify police... these are just facts of life in our culture that sells some drugs legally and makes other drugs illegal...

the bottom line (or at least one of them... oh, here i go getting into a socio-economic political rant on us), the education we get about drugs in the good old u.s.a. is as biased as every other bit of education we get, mostly controlled or at least heavily influenced by the holy dollar of corporate america... drugs are bad, m'ok?... of course alcohol and tobacco are not included in that statement because, after all, there's a whole government department and many billions of dollars at stake if we decided to really see the harm in alcohol and tobacco abuses... but not to belabor that point (much), here is some more drug reading for you if you are really interested in learning about drugs through the written word... misconceptions - wiki one bad trip looking outside the u.s.a., we can find a much more rational (and not corporate money driven) assessment of drugs... drug news the good drugs guide more news toward new drug harm scales drug harms in the UK alcohol or heroin? ...

there is some of my perspective and opinions on drugs in general and on a few drugs i've experienced... my experiences, personally in this body, were wonderful... my experiences with others were mixed, partly because there were people who were not ready and needed a whole lot of help getting through, even surviving the drugs... and sometimes others required emergency rooms and sometimes i watched people die... so while i personally physically and mentally and emotionally loved my in-body experience, i did not enjoy being with others who either obtained poorly made drugs that contained other harmful stuff and i did not enjoy being with others who simply were not ready to relax and enjoy the experience...

i do not recommend drugs... i don't need them myself, for the highs i experience in my brain are even better than those i experienced on the best trips through drug experiences... but for the alternative perspective, i would personally use, probably just a few times a year if that much lsd, mdma, and thc again if they were legal... thc i might use a bit more often as a relaxant more than anything, though still probably only a few times a month if that much... i do not use alcohol or tobacco because the side effects are way more harmful to my health than the benefits...

so there is everything you wanted (or didn't) want to know about my perspective on drugs, most specifically four relatively popular illegal drugs...