hope you have or will read music helps me remember you because i don't want you to miss the words that are meant to remind you that i care about you and i want you to know i love hearing from you even if it's once in a blue moon or less... see, contrary to what most babbling self-indulgent meanderings might seem to suggest, might it's not only about writing to myself here, ya know?... some of you i have not heard from in years, some even longer... please know you are not just always welcome, but i want to know how you are, what you do, and what's happening in your world no matter what is happening... i want you to remember this even though i don't say it all the time :)
some music helps me remember the heart still beating inside of me, the experiences and dreams of love past and hope for more... and this first week of december used to be a time i would devote to my heart, to remembering, to feeling all i can feel from the hope of euphoria to dreams of sharing everything and true love to the losses that will always remain as hope for some form of connection, not returning to the way it was, but at least keeping in touch with the way it is today... love is forever, after all... there is no one i have ever loved who is not very much a part of my heart today and there is always desire to know how past lovers and friends are today... this is the way of honest love... hoping for the best, for happiness and healthiness and a wonderful memory... but however it is, i still care and i still want to know...
so the first week used to be a time of deep emotion... a time of mourning and a time of healing... a time to cry the tears of missing friends and remembering the good times... a time of rejoicing in the ability to remember and the desire to remember well... a time to remember peace of mind and hope for one more smile that says peace of mind is shared... a time for reaching out to say - i love you and hope all is well today...
the first week of december was the annual catharsis... and over the years, especially recent years, working and lack of interest and lack of contact from those who knew me along the way in this life, the old friends who are connective tissue for memory and creativity and growth and life itself... this year, because it was supposed to happen this year (somewhere in writings decades ago i said so), it is happening even without anyone providing connective tissue and yay for the independent child who does it no matter what... the child who goes it alone if that's how it must be (<-- sing along :)
the first week of december i remember the child...
Monday, December 3, 2012
the first week of december
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- happy noodle!
- out to party
- do you ever wonder?
- another secret?
- do you promise not to tell
- real time again
- happy new year
- not my party
- sleep, except
- the most frustrating thing
- hopefully some sleep happened
- is there no more to write?
- so what do you think?
- the real? (part two)
- the real?
- oh joy oh giggle
- how many times
- a month to remember
- it only gets better
- why so serio?
- such a sneaky blogger am i
- lots of emo lately
- so many small buttocks on tv
- excuses abound
- wanna feel a new buzz
- exciting, sort of
- yummy leftovers
- hungry
- the fun life
- why i don't use wordpress
- doggie balance
- meanwhile, on the radio
- yeah, so whatever la la la
- football at home
- multiple parties
- there may be more
- will 2013 be unlucky?
- when all else fails
- sweet delusions
- conditions
- so maybe i ought to sleep now
- spam comments
- and a bit better, perhaps
- google spam
- after dinner
- and some tv football
- snacks, adult drinks, food, dogs, friends
- productivity, aye?
- ah, lunch is good
- uncertain day
- waiting
- lots of laundry, and some nuts
- in case i am still asleep
- the end of the year is approaching
- stay amused
- what's in the sky?
- a serious moment
- laundry ho!
- no secret, really
- alright now
- much better, thanks
- chocolate overload
- ah, yummy pizza and chocolate
- awake and wobbly
- adoring fans, i love you
- lumpy bed
- making whine
- maybe it's diet
- wake, ache, roll, sleep
- dreaming of sleep
- push the sleep
- dang pain in the neck
- those wacky numbers
- seriously, friday already?
- excitement from nothing
- we have so much catching up to do
- slow day, but new faces
- SNL
- afternoon naps
- the challenge (or one of them)
- the next entry
- reading madness
- titles are underrated
- sleepus interruptus
- so there we have it
- yumminess
- so tv and food
- sweet sleep, great music
- sleeping without the dog
- xmas, quick version
- day home, day ay ay home
- back to normal programming
- do you want to get to know me?
- there's always hope
- dreams last for, well, not so long
- new 4am face
- somebody loves it
- do you enjoy craig ferguson?
- am i begging too much?
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dumb poll (above), smart responders
all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...
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the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)
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