am i wasting my time?

yes i wonder... what would happen... what would happen to this world... oh yes i wonder what would happen to this world (thank you harry)...

is there a mind like mine who understands egocentricity and insecurity clashing in the ultimate death struggle for so many reasons seventy books would only scratch the surface (and we've scratched many more surfaces that we have not returned to in quite some time, i mean, just to slip in that fact for our conscious thought), but my question here is more aimed at my place in this world...

who me?...

woke up from a nap with this question in mind and the question is not am i wasting my time writing or blogging in general? this time, even though that question has long since been answered for me and still has minimal answer outside of me, the question pondering around my brain that inspires the title of this entry is...

am i wasting my time blogging here in this (e)thereal blog?...

yes, this blog that still attempts and purports to be daily bits and pieces of life and my personal experience through the physical world and through the mind that calls itself me... and if i am wasting some time, how much and is it worth it?...

i am wondering if am i driving away potential readers by being too much something?... too honest?... too misunderstandable (or misunderstood)?... how do i appear outside of myself?... do i appear too depressed or silly or self-involved or careless or out of control or pathetic or angry or negative or ocd (perhaps a poll would be helpful lol lam... if it was answered, narf :)

i am wondering if i am presenting myself in words as somehow something i am not seeking to appear as?... how do i present here, that is the deeper question i wish you had the time to answer... i wish many people had time to answer as i would like a consensus, since no one is actually right here in space to compare who i am in the physical reality to who i am presented as in words...

given the world at large does not appear to have time to read enough and get to know me well enough to respond, i drop this entry here in the hope you might find the time someday or know someone who can...

cuz i want to know... and cuz i have the time...

narf too :)