weather dependent

the first game started with rain and i expected the other team to beat us quickly cuz they were a much better team and they did beat us though it took six innings and i was very frustrated because i was pitching well (+90% first pitch strikes and struck out three, which is rare in softball) but the fielding was sad as simple ground ball outs were singles due to fielding and/or throwing errors and oh well...

my frustration came from the coach faulting the pitching when softball is not about striking people out, it is about fielding (and yet i did strike people out and only gave up a few solid legitimate hits - there is nothing i can do about slow ground ball errors and wild throws that give up extra bases and extra runs)... people were playing in positions they never practiced and making errors on easy ground balls and easy throws, that is not the pitchers fault...

i was stupid to let it get into my head enough to change the way i pitched and make an out batting, which pissed me off all the more... stupid, stop it...

even worse though was that i hurt my ankle trying to chase after all the throwing errors which frustrated me even more... it is throbbing less now...

fortunately the second game in the other league was rained out because the country closed the fields due to weather... and except for the frustration, the day was fun and especially appreciated is that jackson was there to be my friend and listen to me and hug me after...