something like that... so i moped (not as in riding a moped to work) and felt the lonelies big time and wondered if anybody ever really cared about me for real and whether i am really worth anything to anybody other than a few dollars and i drag myself into work without a shower (but at least did dry shave) planning on slowly distracting myself with work while taking time to get to the bank and pay rent and send out the credit card letter and so on and what do i find... a half dozen investigators are at the facility doing a full annual survey for acha by acha people from another district in addition to our ahca and dcf people... so i didn't sit down to breath too much today and no time for much of anything but dancing with the surveyors...
so it's now dinner time...
jackson called to tell me about her day and that felt really good like maybe i really do matter in her life and have value, aye?... ah, most seriously, i love living alone and yet, this time, i miss my roommates (yes, happiness too) more than i've missed any roommates in decades... even though the place was cramped and cluttered and messy and now i may even have the space to spread out and unpack, i miss them cuz they cared so well and it was good to live with healthy caring and most of all, they needed me and i forgot how much i love to be needed...
so much for the distractions of the day, aye? :}
take care of yourself and your friends cuz you never know when they will be gone and you are on your own again... most important to remember is that near or far, true friends who love you unconditionally are the most important thing in the world...
ta da! :}
(hey, i'm trying, ya know? :}
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
the universe cares or
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- this will be here
- miss me much?
- ka-boom
- woah, wow, what?
- missing out
- too serious for this world
- soooooo tired
- leftovers (must be again, at least)
- lonely after softball
- lazy weekend
- still, yeah, awake too
- silence can be so loud
- sudden 5K
- let myself sleep
- sleep (he asks)... what sleep?...
- back and forth
- white castle krystals
- another dog night
- losing interest
- woke again
- slippery sleep
- awake again
- and another (long day)
- could be fun
- another long day
- walking slowly, waking, that is
- cuz someday someone will want to know
- relaxing awake
- all the fun of the money
- you want me, wake me
- cuz the excitement continues
- and when nobody arrived, then what?
- await your arrival
- quick night
- nap and wake
- don't look now (around, that is)
- skipping showers
- ok then
- boom goes the sky
- too much energy to sleep
- such a good moment for sleep
- wake up, dangit!
- still awake?
- this kind of fool
- was almost asleep
- busy day, delicious night
- night madness
- why oh why
- remembering a bit
- interesting (not really) drama
- the world won't let me sleep
- tear it up
- feeling the burn
- still sweet softball
- sweet softball
- naps are good
- moving on
- woke dreaming
- torn between two lovers
- oh so slowly
- changes change fast
- days may blur for a while
- the question above
- sighs and cheers
- the blurry healing
- so much silence
- realizing missed opportunities
- switching to music
- laundry
- and so it goes
- awakish
- caught up, sorta
- inconvenience stores
- inside and out
- not easier, just drifting
- the universe cares or
- some other time
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musical distractions
If people had visible signs or meters that told something about them, what would you want it to tell you?
dumb poll (above), smart responders
all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...
SEARCH ME
the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)
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