realizing i held back so much during the years jackson lived here cuz that's where i live, on the surface, these days cuz the emo-heart child inside is still so vulnerable is a scary sad moment that came in that waking clarity that lasts a fraction of a millisecond and is almost always missed by the conscious mind... remembering the giggling deliciousness of the last night (food and wine was expensive, but seriously good) and while fatigue and awkwardness of introductions and other stuff played a role, the walls never really came down even living here... blame it on no time, of course, but that's a lame excuse... she never really knew me cuz i never really came out to play past the surface... and listening to the meg and dia playlist helps rub it in too... it's a good rub in the end, just lonely, if ya know what i mean...
and all i can do is sigh :}
Sunday, August 7, 2011
realizing missed opportunities
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- this will be here
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- ka-boom
- woah, wow, what?
- missing out
- too serious for this world
- soooooo tired
- leftovers (must be again, at least)
- lonely after softball
- lazy weekend
- still, yeah, awake too
- silence can be so loud
- sudden 5K
- let myself sleep
- sleep (he asks)... what sleep?...
- back and forth
- white castle krystals
- another dog night
- losing interest
- woke again
- slippery sleep
- awake again
- and another (long day)
- could be fun
- another long day
- walking slowly, waking, that is
- cuz someday someone will want to know
- relaxing awake
- all the fun of the money
- you want me, wake me
- cuz the excitement continues
- and when nobody arrived, then what?
- await your arrival
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- ok then
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- such a good moment for sleep
- wake up, dangit!
- still awake?
- this kind of fool
- was almost asleep
- busy day, delicious night
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- interesting (not really) drama
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- sweet softball
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- woke dreaming
- torn between two lovers
- oh so slowly
- changes change fast
- days may blur for a while
- the question above
- sighs and cheers
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- so much silence
- realizing missed opportunities
- switching to music
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- and so it goes
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musical distractions
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dumb poll (above), smart responders
all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...
SEARCH ME
the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)
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