losing interest

in work again... comes and goes and i am realizing that jackson kept me interested in caring about life and the planet and the human race and the kids at work and a whole lot of everything that i am not feeling much sadness about disillusionment and ambivalence with humanity in the global sense and at work and mostly all around... i still want to care about friends, but it is so easy to stay distant when there are no personal friends within a half hour of where i live and no intimate friends within a thousand miles... the news, the tv, the superficial hypocrites are everywhere... fear-mongering, selling drama, reality tv, and be afraid - danger danger - addicted to false adrenaline rushes... watching the news is so pathetically depressing... the news is the boy who cried wolf... how can we help but become desensitized... they love disasters... death... probably the most used word in the news... the news celebrates the worst humans can do... devastating, incredible, dangerous, damage, injuries, deaths, panic, monster, slammed, hurt, fault, investigating, worry, big story, storm for the ages (it is always the worst, the most epic drama, every night, every story, even the weather), blah blah blah...

so how are you?...