still, yeah, awake too

spent most of the night wandering facebook and other web worlds and checking weather radar and missing jackson and happiness (cuz they are in the path of the storm) and once again realizing i have no one who would immediately notice if i died no less anyone to take care of my burial or stuff or anything... no family... and then i once again bring to consciousness that one reason i give so much and try to adopt family is to find at least one person who would be there if i needed something (a ride to work from the mechanic when my car needs work (or is stuck somewhere... i'd have to call a taxi company and they are not so easy to find around here) or a ride to a doctor if i felt really sick or, well, that's the point... i love solitude, yet i love loving and bonding and feeling someone needs me and someone would be there for me too...

time for sleep, just lay down fool, it'll come :}

narf :}