the absence of puppy, happiness, is the biggest change as i wake on this first sunday alone in this space... the snacking last night does not help as i feel quite bloated... wonder how long before i motivate myself to exercise... the solitary exercise is the meditative leap that will be the break through into acceptance of the reality of living alone...
are you as bored as i am of this dragging out the changes period?... even the creativity is kinda weak this time when compared to previous years (you'll just have to look back yourself for comparison cuz we don't have the time and the hand-written written gardens are in storage north of niagara falls... yeah, still... i did pay the bill for this year finally... they cashed the check so the stuff must still be up there... long strange trip continues, no less, aye?)... but there is creativity - so yay :)
burned incense last night... smells like jackson in here now cuz it's her incense... everything around me including the chair upon which i sit is her stuff actually as the living room furniture was all hers and yeah, the boxes remain where they were left piled on the couches and floor and so on... it's really, physically, like she's not gone and will be back any minute... happiness too...
waking up emo, no doubt (laughing at myself even as i wallow in the lonelies, aye?... if only you understood all the layers, you'd run away like everybody else... or wait, that was supposed to be more optimistic... lmfao at myself, lam... that would be lmfaoam, actually... are you really following the subtle subtext and the betwixt and between the lines stuff this week?... amazed that toronto hasn't picked up on all this yet... perhaps we need a more severe cheese grater to run the heart over and through?... oh stop it, you're killing me - and thank you jack benny)...
somebody wake groucho, the irreverence is kinda weak in spots :}
Sunday, August 7, 2011
so much silence
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- this will be here
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- ka-boom
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- missing out
- too serious for this world
- soooooo tired
- leftovers (must be again, at least)
- lonely after softball
- lazy weekend
- still, yeah, awake too
- silence can be so loud
- sudden 5K
- let myself sleep
- sleep (he asks)... what sleep?...
- back and forth
- white castle krystals
- another dog night
- losing interest
- woke again
- slippery sleep
- awake again
- and another (long day)
- could be fun
- another long day
- walking slowly, waking, that is
- cuz someday someone will want to know
- relaxing awake
- all the fun of the money
- you want me, wake me
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- and when nobody arrived, then what?
- await your arrival
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- ok then
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- such a good moment for sleep
- wake up, dangit!
- still awake?
- this kind of fool
- was almost asleep
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- why oh why
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- interesting (not really) drama
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- tear it up
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- still sweet softball
- sweet softball
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- woke dreaming
- torn between two lovers
- oh so slowly
- changes change fast
- days may blur for a while
- the question above
- sighs and cheers
- the blurry healing
- so much silence
- realizing missed opportunities
- switching to music
- laundry
- and so it goes
- awakish
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dumb poll (above), smart responders
all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...
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the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)
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