referencing the sad, heavy, etc, some other time (when someone cares to ask, perhaps, or when i make time to remember again, if i do before this body dies, that is)... so back home and alone again, naturally, and if the place was empty or clean it would be a new adventure with more excitement but the place is a wreck of boxes and dirtiness and much of jackson's stuff that i must sort through and find a corner for and so, find the time and clean it up and then, a new life...
i could just sit here for days or weeks in this mess as work swallows most of my time and vegetation swallows the rest (the self-pathetic baby inside likes that idea cuz the spb is stupid), but then, maybe somebody will actually reach out and keep in touch (like a friend?) and motivate me to motivate myself to sing and dance and get back into the show (life, the show, who remembers?)...
meanwhile, for the moment, i really don't know what to do with myself (obviously i don't want to know, but shhhh)... don't want to just go out for distraction... don't want to do anything around here (though laundry would be wise as i am working tomorrow)... just want to let go in my way, slowly, meaningfully, like all the time shared really mattered a lot... no wonder i am so alone, aye? :}
maybe i'll catch up on sci-fi monday tv (if i don't focus on having nobody to watch with me, right?)... hopefully some time this week i will remember to think about the feelings and events of the past week and catch up a bit cuz posterity would be upset (or so i hope, aye?) if i didn't record the details... cuz even if nobody else has time to share it all, ever, i can hope someone will someday, somewhere (you know, in that place for us?)... some other time... cuz the bottom line (the point and all) is that when i am not avoiding or feeling so lonesome i could die or some other sappy poor-me song, i care and want to know...
and how are you?
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
some other time
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- this will be here
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- missing out
- too serious for this world
- soooooo tired
- leftovers (must be again, at least)
- lonely after softball
- lazy weekend
- still, yeah, awake too
- silence can be so loud
- sudden 5K
- let myself sleep
- sleep (he asks)... what sleep?...
- back and forth
- white castle krystals
- another dog night
- losing interest
- woke again
- slippery sleep
- awake again
- and another (long day)
- could be fun
- another long day
- walking slowly, waking, that is
- cuz someday someone will want to know
- relaxing awake
- all the fun of the money
- you want me, wake me
- cuz the excitement continues
- and when nobody arrived, then what?
- await your arrival
- quick night
- nap and wake
- don't look now (around, that is)
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- ok then
- boom goes the sky
- too much energy to sleep
- such a good moment for sleep
- wake up, dangit!
- still awake?
- this kind of fool
- was almost asleep
- busy day, delicious night
- night madness
- why oh why
- remembering a bit
- interesting (not really) drama
- the world won't let me sleep
- tear it up
- feeling the burn
- still sweet softball
- sweet softball
- naps are good
- moving on
- woke dreaming
- torn between two lovers
- oh so slowly
- changes change fast
- days may blur for a while
- the question above
- sighs and cheers
- the blurry healing
- so much silence
- realizing missed opportunities
- switching to music
- laundry
- and so it goes
- awakish
- caught up, sorta
- inconvenience stores
- inside and out
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musical distractions
If people had visible signs or meters that told something about them, what would you want it to tell you?
dumb poll (above), smart responders
all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...
SEARCH ME
the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)
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