remembering a bit

wow... yeah, wow... we've come a long way from where all this began (in regard to this blog) when life was so busy with fun there was no time for whining or wanting more than the pleasures of the moment... there was a freedom and hope and wonder and wherever did all the pitiful cynicism come from since then (not asking, it's the choice i made to allow the negative influences of our human culture {nearby and globally} to become my thought patterns, dummy)... so is it time to remember who i am (the child inside) even if nobody else really notices or cares or sticks around to share the perspective and experience?... sure do hope so :)

i can probably best tell who reads this blog by looking into peoples eyes when we meet in real life... people who read stuff like this will probably look away real fast so as not to laugh in my face (if only they knew i laugh first, aye?)... people do lie so well though, especially to themselves, so who knows what is real or lasting meaning even when sharing seems to be genuine and often...

i look for the one who understands and cares to share it all cuz that is what life is about...

so here i am remembering a bit of how and why this blog began (and all the others as well)... to share, to share everything, even when no one is here... to put the sharing and caring into words and keep track of the roller coaster ride that is this life so that when someone might want to share life with me, my experience and a bit of all i've been can be read right here...

for you... cuz you care...