and so it goes

i started picking up the boxes jackson left and sorting through my clothes and put the first load of laundry in and that is the first step of accepting the change in the physical reality... the letting go has officially begun outside of the head (heart and mind) which is a very good thing because it means the letting go has progressed well within... sad, sure, but joy in the acceptance and the well wishes and the actualization of unconditional love...

not sure what i want to do with the couches and furniture... thought it was all going to be gone... it never did fit into the living room well as the living room space is smaller than the stuff... some things will go into the bedroom... couch or love seat... maybe table... maybe bookshelf... maybe a chair or two (those are mine and have been in storage since we moved here)... and so many boxes, hers and mine... wonder what is still in the storage closet outside... all in due time, one step taken, that is a good thing... actually, more than one step, the big steps are inside and in the written gardens... a few new blogs (ooo, did i tell?)... we'll catch up with those soon enough...

yeah, i do love the drama of change (laugh more than cry and the balance is happiness) but even more, i love the reverence and respect of taking the time to treasure the memories and let the best feelings embed in the heart (emo part of the brain, ya know)... and the hope that someone will walk this road all the way with me and understand and choose the same depth and intensity and processes for themselves and share them all with me continues to be the shining star that wakes me up and keeps me going...

hope you hang on to your star too :)