changes change fast

the last post and the post before are much longer lasting expressions of me (and probably more interesting), but this is the momentary experience, the brief record of life as it happens blog and so, bye bye miss american pie, or the emo meaningful stuff, for that matter... yeah right, it never really leaves... but anyway...

i finally moved some boxes into a corner in the front bedroom, yeah, jackson's room... and so the love seat and couch are now clear... i might sleep on one or the other now and then so i can really indulge the emo-child and missing them... scent memory, you know?... at least i am not a cross dresser (she'll be happy to know i decided not to put on any of her clothes as she laughs at the thought... anybody appreciate irreverence?)...

enjoyed sci-fi monday and a few texts back and forth with jackson... good news and good feelings but it is obvious that she is a whole lot more important to me than i am to her and even more, she has a whole lot more going on in her life and people to share the daily life than i do... i mean, she's living with three others, one who is devoted to her and integral in getting her up there and four dogs, one who is a part of her, and she has a relationship up there as well and a new job keeping her mind and time full of new stuff and me, well, i've got me and my job and the tv and the laptop and my imagination and dreams... sounds kinda pathetic at my end, aye?... or at least repetitive...

no wonder nobody wants to deal with my honesty all the time...

time off work, time for me would be good now...

once again, maybe next month...