ok, tonight we catch up

maybe... might be tomorrow, actually... or the next day, even... the weekend, perhaps?... so how long have i been away?... a week?... almost a week?... whatever, time it relative... a dozen or more entries lost, that scarred this week more than anything else (from the blogging perspective)... still stings cuz i was touching on memories, music, and it seems the universe does not want me to do that... somewhere in toronto, the answer to that riddle might be found... or at least lost... it's all water under the bridge after all... muddy, bloody, shudder-filled water, but yesterday's water... and if the music returns, the inspiration and memories and path to enlightenment and wonder and excitement and magic may return too... until then, i enjoy what is, what i am, and everything without the connection to the magic that was... it's like living two separate lives, two disconnected chapters, yet still one mind and body... but who cares, really... truth is, nobody can, because nobody understands (cuz nobody really knows) what was lost and what the first chapter was or could have been...

don't be sad, cuz two out of three ain't bad (when i get to wanting to explain what the third is, i'll let you know)...

lol narf :)