sleep, that is... waking refreshed (sorta almost) for the first time in a while... that makes no sense though, does it?... i mean, i've not been working for almost four weeks and i haven't caught up on sleep, i mean, just sleep and get that real rest that i haven't gotten in years, right?... well not so simple, obviously, cuz the stress of years of being beaten up and the suddenness of the final blow has left me with a bout of ptsd... don't laugh, i'm serious, i have all the symptoms...
so unappreciated, so abused, so discarded, so what now... sadly, i've been here before... i'll find my way through and the process proceeds with this acceptance of the situation... it's kind of like the greiving process, if you know what that entails... the bubbles of anger bug me when i lay down in bed... the unfinished business and unresolved issues too... time to resolve a few...
then there's the pressure of needing a job fighting with the desire to give myself the summer off to relax and enjoy rest and time for me... stop fighting guys, it's keeping me awake...
yeah, see what eight hours sleep gets me?... closer to clarity :)
Thursday, July 12, 2012
wow, that was good
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- yummy dinner, smiley night
- lazy afternoon
- was visiting
- morning at noon
- no more caffeine
- love my roommate
- evening fun
- coasting today
- surprise day
- imagery
- quiet evening at home alone
- working my way back to me, yeah
- olympics and stuff
- keep on rolling
- the long and winding road
- who are we?
- whatsa whatsa
- gonna pizza tonight
- what to do now
- what happened to sleeping in?
- half and half
- olympics, old boy
- if i had a million dollars
- distractions
- semi-awake, not semi-truck
- another friday morning
- what's in the stats?
- did i mention paying attention helps?
- paying attention helps
- doing my job
- imperfect pleasures
- blogging as a job?
- good morning, aye?
- some days are strangely not there
- day gone
- not much more
- and so then
- up, down, and up again
- good day, good night
- checking off the list
- well this was whatever it was
- a bit wonky
- monday night sci-fi
- good evening
- facebook is sad
- shared weekend
- another monday morning
- ready for sleep and then
- food, fun, and rain
- morning rises
- other stuff
- home for the night
- sunshiney day
- nite
- change of plans
- poor jackson
- made it through the week
- what to do, aye?
- after rest
- shower, shave, rest
- head, neck, ear, foot
- a bit of deeper ooze
- slept about ten hours
- time for sleep
- curled up on the couch
- research and tv
- the research is in, sort of
- oops, he did it again
- was sleeping good
- almost sleep time
- and so i didn't
- enough sleep
- eureka! what a disappointment
- don't let dishes sit unrinsed
- breakfast and work at home
- something changed
- tv, nap, tv, sleep now
- and then we had food
- it took a bit of time
- so what i was saying
- woah
- somehow, sleep was put off
- with a blurred smile
- instead of sleep
- farty dog and cooking
- did ya miss me?
- day shift
- ready for sleep again
- wow, that was good
- buried in the search
- i was in bed, really
- what?... not again!
- going to bed
- willin'
- later in the day
- so much to talk about
- it can be so easy
- feeling fatigue
- working from home
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musical distractions
If people had visible signs or meters that told something about them, what would you want it to tell you?
dumb poll (above), smart responders
all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...
SEARCH ME
the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)
WORK ... JOB ... MUSIC ... LOVE ... SOFTBALL ... KA ... 42 ... LOL ... LAM ... LAA ... ... ... ...
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