Thursday, July 12, 2012

wow, that was good

sleep, that is... waking refreshed (sorta almost) for the first time in a while... that makes no sense though, does it?... i mean, i've not been working for almost four weeks and i haven't caught up on sleep, i mean, just sleep and get that real rest that i haven't gotten in years, right?... well not so simple, obviously, cuz the stress of years of being beaten up and the suddenness of the final blow has left me with a bout of ptsd... don't laugh, i'm serious, i have all the symptoms...

so unappreciated, so abused, so discarded, so what now... sadly, i've been here before... i'll find my way through and the process proceeds with this acceptance of the situation... it's kind of like the greiving process, if you know what that entails... the bubbles of anger bug me when i lay down in bed... the unfinished business and unresolved issues too... time to resolve a few...

then there's the pressure of needing a job fighting with the desire to give myself the summer off to relax and enjoy rest and time for me... stop fighting guys, it's keeping me awake...

yeah, see what eight hours sleep gets me?... closer to clarity :)

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musical distractions

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dumb poll (above), smart responders

all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...

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the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)

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