some sort of philosophy and today

sarcastic self-importance is sometimes just practice for the real thing... or humility... something like that... so be aware that the previous entry and the one before were words to live by for me and while they were written here for you too, they are important things to remember when striving to maintain a healthy life... the struggle does not appear to be any sort of struggle at all some days (once upon a time, most days, aye?), but even when life seemed easy we still struggle against gravity and human insecurities and all the fears within and around us and must not forget the basics that make it seem easy then or now...

and blah blah blah blah blah...

maybe if i sound like i know what i am talking about, the boat carrying my spirit and confidence across these rather stormy seas will stay afloat and my insecurity and depression will not rise like a mighty whale to swallow the fragile craft that carries me before i remember how to fly again...

or so the theory goes...

and finally, the daily touch (as in, keeping in...) the mundane pathos shall not play out here today... this is not the place for pity parties or long winded introversion (so he says)... a friend got me out (in scorching heat) by treating me to lunch (well, she did need me to exchange her phone as she is on my account and she did pay me for her share of the phone, so self-interest balances out - and still rules) and the excursion around the store and across to lunch and across to the book store for a bit prompted the foot and leg to get much needed exercise...

meanwhile, on the inside, two new blogs grew out of the rubble recently, or was that four... well, two new blogs have started, one as a record of a life (the other side of -or- next step in daily life that may be the new start after i find the new job and start the new life to return to the flat affect of an objective recording of life as i experience it as opposed to whatever (e)thereal is becoming as it veers from it's intended path of brevity and objective reporting) and one for the bored and the caring (potentially the extension of the old, sleeping mostlydead writings that provide release for the down side of the daily life) and just maybe this blogging life (where explanatory notes and introductions can be found) might save me yet lol lam laa (even if it's a bit on the maniacal side of laughter for the moment, laughter is still good medicine...

narf :)