yo-yo

back up again... the four hour cycle is so consistent once i allow the body sleep instinct to control itself... the phone rang a few, people wondering what i am doing for new years eve... and a web request that needs time for a return call... maybe i will not sit home resting this year (which is what i do from time to time) since i am doing that me time the week before this year... a group went to see yes man tonight at the imax, but i chose sleep instead... the body appreciates me listening... the mind (and ethereal me) appreciates this me time... even if it seems a little selfish...

next step is to get the mouth (as in taste buds) under control... being a foodaholic is not wise at this stage of life, or at any stage, i suppose, though i could burn off the binges a whole lot faster and easier in my teens and even my twenties...

all by myself, alas... as always, so far, at least, in this life...

the space is much clearer now and it looks big... the entry, dining, living room area is one big space about 30' by almost 14' with a 10' by 10' kitchen open to the entry/dining area, so sitting out here the space feels big when it's relatively empty... the whole apartment is just under 900 square feet, probably including the walk-in closet, walk-in laundry room, and pantry... i think the ceilings are 9', though they seem higher... all in all, the space is great, even better as i start actually moving in and making more of the space useful for something other than storage... furniture?... maybe next year :)

obviously i could have gotten away with saving a couple of thousand dollars in a smaller place this year, but who knew i was going to be loaning/giving my furniture money to others... i can say no, i just seldom do when i have... haves should not hoard, i say... though have-nots do need to learn to get and sustain their own too... where is my wise life partner again?... oh yeah, haven't found her... or him, if we're talking partnering for $ and business... and alas, i sense the loneliness wanting to bubble up to the surface... natural, as it must be felt before i can actually share all of me again (and i considering sharing all of me again?)...

why else unpack and clean up the space and take me time, aye? :)

the peanut gallery and ego think they are so clever... silly gits, little do they know they are only kids playing in the schoolyard while i nap through life... thereal me (blending the ethereal me and the physical me to reach for all of me) may wake up next year... or not, but maybe is better than no mention at all :)

so whatcha been up to since four hours ago? :)