me and the phone

if you've read me for a while, you know my aversion to the telephone has some deep roots, but more and more lately i forget why i use to cringe when the phone rang and why i would feel the end of the world was a moment away when i pressed the buttons to dial a number... ok, so maybe i don't forget, but i seem to forget after a few minutes of rambling on or listening to someone... and an hour or more might go by before the stiffness in my elbow or flattened ear remind me that i am physically uncomfortable...

is that a good sign?...

well, freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose, but besides the slippery path of irreverence my mind might take most of the time, i was distracted for a moment by pondering naming a new person for the online babbling and that lead to my realizing there are many (or at least a few) new people i ought to name, if i haven't already... which got me to thinking if i should just use initials or go right ahead and use names cuz most of these people were met through meetup where their name is out there on the web with their photo and details in a profile anyway and what sort of privacy violating or danger could there be in mentioning them in a line in my obscure babbling anyway...

still... we'll call her jane... so jane was the one who handed me the note saying call me when you are going for a run, which was appreciated cuz any incentive and motivation is appreciated and she seems like a potential friend and that was a friend action, so yay jane thanks and she just called back and we talked longer than expected which lead me to ponder the phone... she listened to the story of my life and i am wondering if i did that and why i do that (defense mechanism?... want to be known?... testing?... have nothing else to say?... sensing genuine interest?... too much analysis?)...

yeah, so ok, hopefully the story of my sordid childhood and hopelessly hopeful romantic crashes (but it did all start with her mentioning wanting a food processor, really it did) did not end the conversations or friendship before it starts... cuz there's always hope, ya know?...

and now, to the gym... though i really ought to shower first cuz i stink... so shower and then the gym?... don't be allowing too much distraction get in the way or we won't get there... yes, we know... we are not dumb, just lazy sometimes... and amused, we are amused most of the time... meanwhile, though i still prefer face to face talks and sharing, i'm not hating the phone as much as i used to, which is a good sign....

hope you are making your day fun :)