the sixth part

waking to the sound of the phone ringing way too early again, but that's the kind of job i have and i chose it because i love to be helpful and needed so even though always being tethered to a phone and responsibilities to care for others 24/7 can be a very exhausting burden sometimes it is more often quite invigorating because it brings me happiness because one of my favorite things to do in life is helping others and the only frustration is when someone doesn't leave a message cuz i can't help someone who does that if i don't know what they want or need... but anyway, sleep will come again, most likely soon, and until then i took the opportunity to restart the computer and install more updates and use spybot to immunize and scan and so far the computer is working again so i think the issue may have been a power cord problem brought on by my rearranging the living room and therein rearranging the power cords because the living room needed rearranging and because the computer battery is a goner because i left the laptop plugged most (as in 99.99% of the time) since i bought it four or more years ago (when vista was still the around and xp because nearly impossible to find and win7 was not available yet... foolish time to buy, i know, but the previous laptop died just then so choice was not an option...

and so, here we are waking after a few hours (or less) to continue the computer fixing and the one two three four five now six part babbling about whatever cuz i don't want to do anything else with the laptop during the computer fixes and there is only so much laundry and tidying up of the space i can stand (or do while jackson is sleeping)...

if i had all the time in the world like i used to, i might click on a random playlist like this and listen all night, though after a song or two i decided to switch back to the moody blues for they (especially justin and john) have spoken for me so often in this life i can ride their see-saw (the roller coaster ride goes on forever) and relax trusting myself to survive anything because, at least so far, i have (never a doubt on some level)...

i love my job, just wish someone else loved me as much... or even more, it's not a contest after all and even if it was, that's one i would love to lose now and then :)