catching up a bit

softball is in semi-full swing again (though limiting it to four days a week, including one practice day) as i play on monday and friday evenings and sundays with a practice every other saturday morning and so far, the winning is winning over the losing giving all three of my teams winning records that i lose track of after the first or second games... the sunday team, having played our second game today, is 2-0 even though the team played poorly in the field both games and hit poorly in the second game today... hopefully we will get better as this is the season that determines which two teams goes to the world series and while we've gone the past two years, it was only because two other teams did not want to go the past two years so we took the second spot and we did not do well at the series (fun as it is to go away somewhere for a week of softball) and this season we have five or six new players with varying limited skills and minimal softball knowledge and a couple of them seem to think they know enough to coach, which does not bode well for winning... still, there's always hope... the other two teams are on track for the playoffs in both leagues even though the leagues are mixed with a few much better teams and a few really weak teams and we are in the middle... outcomes aside, i love to play and wish i had time to play more and so i am having fun...

life is mostly about work these days since taking the new job back in the fall of 2013 and that is sometimes frustrating as i am deeply lonely deep inside even though i rarely have time to feel it deeply or explore it or express it (or wallow in it, so being busy has some positive going for it) and yet i love the work i do and need to remind myself to head home after working through the day without taking a break or eating lunch most days because i juggle many balls and just continue from one to the next as they rise to become the next priority... so closer to the bottom line reality of this life, i am happy doing what i do in spite of the loneliness because i love what i do...

at home, jackson is home even less than i am which makes it tough for happiness the dog especially since he is getting old and has accidents when left alone for long hours so jackson drives 15 miles each way (at least a 45 minute driving time round trip) just to walk him which is an extra $70-$80 a month on top of other expenses (especially since her other job is 15+ miles in the opposite direction), but the good news is happiness is still playful and jackson is paying more of her bills even as she is risking burning herself out... so i am out at work 50-60 hours a week most weeks with 10-20 hours doing work for work at home and she is out at work 90-100 hours most weeks and works home too and we try to watch a few tv shows and have dinner together a few times a week just to remember what we look like... happy idiots, perhaps, but i, for one, still wonder how humans ever got to this point where life is so much about making money and so little about actually experiencing the full randomness and social experience of life...

we've had some expensive fun, saw jackson brown in concert recently and saw other concerts and shows over the past years (i'll forget many if i try to list them, but recalling some includes alice cooper, motley crue, the moody blues, chicago, amy steinberg, melissa etheridge, milissa ferrick, brandy carlisle... and a bunch of broadway touring shows too and six ucf football games and a magic game and a soccer game and more) and we have tickets for sara mclachlin and alanis morrisette coming up... and i play a lot of softball and jackson plays on fridays with me and has a bowling league on saturday nights and she gets to the gym several times a week for a couple of hours of strong workouts (something i ought to get back to myself) so we somehow squeeze in a lot of fun and good stuff and all in all, life is fuller than full and mostly much fun...

it's all a lot of multi-tasking, for instance, while writing this entry i have been listening to part one and part two of this discussion of minds i respect a lot...

what else do you wanna know? :)