i obviously need a friend

yup, but then again, i don't actually need a friend unless i want a human to share something meaningful and real with me or someone to at least respect me, if not understand me, or even validate me... and i am mostly ambivalent about wanting that more than half the time and without that desire, there's no need since need is simply the fulfillment of a desire... so for the moment there is some desire to share something meaningful, at least for the moment, and wouldn't mind something real or respect or even some validation (though i'd have to find a friend i actually respect first which leads to the title of this entry i suppose, even with some ambivolence that comes, i suppose again, because i have little hope of finding another human who truly understands what i experience from my perspective in this multiverse)...

so yes... my blogging has way too much complaining about people because i don't have a friend who understand how stupid most people are (and people have reached a level of stupidity that ovverides any tact or concern about being misunderstood... call me arrogant, elitist, delusional, whatever, i don't have any respect for the current intelligence, awareness, or actions of humanity at the moment so opinions beyond those from someone looking into my eyes mean nothing to me at the moment... in other words, whatever... but it would be nice to have a friend here...

lunch was low calorie hot dogs and pasta with low calorie cheeses... yours? :)