walking on through whatever

after a long weekend of softball followed by a long day at work, i could have closed my eyes and been asleep in moments (almost did), but instead of falling asleep, i was wired on coffee cuz i had another game and over pitched tonight while the team didn't hit at all so we lost big time... and then, getting home wired and frustrated but still kind of elated, i had another piece of chicken and i sat and watched an episode of ncis and then, after jackson went to bed, hunger continued to gnaw at me and i searched the kitchen and there was no quick and easy protein that was appealing so i had a can of ravioli and seasoned rich whole milk buttered ricotta cheese and a thousand calories later, there goes the neighborhood... or at least the 200 pound mark, but then, life continues and i shall continue the long steady climb down the fat ladder back to goal weight and optimal health... revelation is only as powerful as the actualization of it, the manifestation of revelation is it's true power... so as tired as this body has become, i am enjoying the life (so unlike years ago when i felt so used, abused, and unappreciated for the efforts at work... ironic that now that feelings lingers at home, but that's another tale on a different colored horse for some other time, blog, or revelation)... the point, is, there may be no point at all, ever, or something like that...

what does it matter who is buried in the grave when you can't read the tombstone, anyway, the fact of the matter is the truth is only available to the mind open to it, so i simply continued following what i feel is truth and trust the way i go and live the only life i know to know... whatever fool or genius i am still awake, so bring me your miracles, or a chocolate shake, your choice...

narf :)