because i always want more

just below the surface of all the babbling brevity (and babble itself) is the essence of the existence known as me in this life, simply, i want more... insatiable is a core aspect of me... and since what i want most in this life (besides peace, love, and happiness) is caring (the feeling of caring is the best for me) and sharing (cuz caring is a verb so sharing caring makes it realer and more better too) then it just shows to go ya that i want more sharing, more caring, more peace love and happiness and never give up, never surrender to anything that can stand in the way (fear, doubt, fatigue, even) so i continue babbling when no one is around cuz this is caring and sharing when no one is around cuz the hope that someone will read all these words is real and the babbling itself keeps the brain alive in spite of constant interruptions by background tv game shows or sports soap operas (listening to professional sports announcers and the over-inflated {in-the-moment reference, get it?} drama kills brain cells these days) or arnold's ass edited out of t2 for tv or any superficial distraction or life event or some such rambling madness still does not change the dominant desire to share more and not afraid of death, sweet november is not everything so share that last breath so we can actually remember everything and where are you now?...

torn?...