attention happens

so here we are more than sixty one hundred (6,106, i believe) entries into this blog and it finally gets interesting... or controversial... popular?... popularity, like celebrity, is as random and challenging to define as it is fickle, but certainly when some truth comes out or some revelation asserts itself (especially when it comes to sex and/or god, attention happens (whether it's momentary fascination, idolization, adoration, or the shit hitting the fan) and recently (and likely momentarily) attention is happening here in this little old blog as more than three thousand (3,000) page views have been recorded in just the last few days... it's a wonderful feeling, getting stroked like this.. an egoasm, or ego orgasm, if you know what i mean... i understand some of you have not ever been able to egoasm and i can only wish you find a way to let go enough to experience your own someday... i do it for myself regularly, but then, my ego is easy...

anyway, it is a wonderful wonder-filled thing to behold when attention happens in this life, even on the relatively anonymous and far away internet level, and i thank you from the bottom of my ego and heart for allowing me to bask in it for a while...

narf :)