and here we are

caught up as much as it's gonna get for now, satisfied i provided the life lived the opportunity to be recorded in this (e)thereal way... still not quite moving on to the new life and they might be cuz the new job/income is still more temporary than i'd like it to be and it is not the free flowing retired life i would like it to be yet, the pleasures of relief and positivity and teamwork atmosphere are all welcome and even dramatic changes from the paranoid stressful antagonistic atmosphere of the last job place...

years of one habit takes a bit of time to change, or so common sense might suggest... but then, i was always told common sense was not my forte, aye?... maybe i still have some unfinished business as well.. obviously (secrets?) i am having way too much fun feeling and experiencing and playing with (and recording) the transition to actually call another life chapter or book concretely over or starting anew...

all that is missing is the partner in this fun, alas, but until someone comes along, the fun is still fun and friends are around a lot and i live with my best friend who is and has the most beautiful heart i know and so i am not nearly as alone as i might be living alone and i enjoy myself alone too... cuz in the end, maybe you've noticed or maybe i've mentioned it a few gazillion times, it's fun inside myself, ya know? :)