rough day

woke to find out jackson was not going to play in the first game cuz she was not feeling well (and a little careless with her body over the weekend away) and so i head out to the field a little late and rush through some batting practice anyway cuz i am tired of not getting the batting practice in just cuz the team is asked to be at the field an hour before the game (and most don't show until much later, a few often show right at game time so not warmed up they play poorly and we lose)... and sometimes, like today, the whole team just seems to not want to be on the field... one runner was thrown out at first and more than half the batters on the other team hit ground balls, most simple fielding chances that most teams, including us, would have handled just fine on better days... and watching outfielders overrun balls and let rolling balls go through their legs and then take three tries to pick the ball up is such a helpless feeling as the other team stretches singles (or outs) into triples and home runs... yeah, i get frustrated with my sunday morning team for for a few reasons, the lack of commitment and preparation for one... and having the highest batting average on the team doesn't seem to matter as i bat consistently around 9th with the poorer hitters following me so i am stranded on base most of the time and so today, for instance, i was at bat once, got one hit, was forced out at second, and we lost 19-5...

mostly i enjoy playing, but i wonder why, most of the time, we don't do what is best for the team when most of the other teams do... anyway, i obviously felt like venting... and the day continued...