have i gone hole hog querulous?

maybe... there are times when all i want to do is whine and lament over the state of human affairs (and the fact that i am not engaged actively in one myself), but then, what is an affair anyone?... a party?... a celebration?... an illicit or immoral coupling of two people promised to two other people?... such is language, always looking for another way out of being precisely one thing or another... clarity is such an elusive oasis... in any case, i deny the positivity within rather often these days and project quite the querulous presence in the web writings i call my blogs, alas, but is that really me?... you wouldn't know, actually, so i don't suppose i am asking you, but feel free to respond and/or discuss amongst yourself... or selves, even... there is more than one of you out there, even if you pretend there isn't... loneliness is too often a self-imposed exile, truth you know... meanwhile, the poverty of expression leads to apathy and depression and believe, weak or strong, that there is nothing worth fighting for and nothing worth sharing anymore... but low self-esteem is only the end if you give into it... like fear, it only has the power you allow... foolish people strive to be fearless, wise people embrace fear and make it work for them... let's embrace!...

am i complaining about being querulous?...

narf lol lam :)