is there anybody gonna listen to my story, aye?

yeah, sometimes i wonder if the best of times has passed me by and if i will ever share all of me with anyone ever and will anyone ever want me to be their number one ever again and will anyone ever want to share all of themselves and everything with me and actually, i wonder that all the time but sometimes i actually feel like it may never happen and that feels really bad... luckily hope keeps me from feeling like that often, but dangit, with my love of giving and caring and sharing and willingness to give it all to the right one, it's not fair that i have to feel like that at all... i deserve better... alas and all that jazz... i wonder if i am human... being...

not fearless, just not letting fear rule... any truly open hearts and minds out there?... that's my story and i'm still editing it... you might find this more interesting if you are bored (then again, maybe not... all this wondering has me hungry... again... spiralling down like a yo-yo)... meanwhile, the dog is having a staring contest again, something he has not done in a very long time... he wants to go out, again, because two walks in the past hour are not enough... he wants more food, again, because he has gotten so sloppy with his food half of it ends up in the water bowl where he tries to skort it up, but fails... and i am eating... we need to get him separate bowls and lay towels down around his eating area... alas, the old dog is trying to learn new tricks...

any connection between the previous two paragraphs is purely coincidental...

narf lol lam :)