the excitement and disappointment

when i come across a blog that has been around for years, i almost simultaneous get excited and disappointed... the excitement is finding a record of a life, or at least a vast library of someone's mind, a way to get to know someone... and a moment later i am disappointed because i know i rarely have time to read hundreds of entries and do not have time to read thousands of entries (no less all the links that add some meaning (sometimes vitally profound and sometimes irreverently amusing and sometimes even annoyingly distracting, just like people) to the entries... so i wonder if others, you reading right now even (assuming you are a lover of words), feel a similar polarity of high and low emotions when first stumbling into this blog (no less my written gardens no less my larger web world {which is a fraction of the writing i've done in this life and all after and therefore influenced by the heartbreaks and abuses, alas} and the millions of links to other places, ideas, and emotions on the web) only to find there are thousands of entries (almost 6,500 at the moment) in this blog alone...

besides saving myself for the one as in the one, i am working a 24/7 gig covering for my three manager vacancies (at least for another month) and doing more because i've been consolidating management because i don't believe in top heavy management and several times a week i am playing softball which takes a couple or few hours each time and there's jackson and happiness and curious at home and then, of course, there is this addiction to writing and babbling and expanding the ever-expanding web world and gardens that want every free moment because there are so few free moments, so there is little time for the online exploring and reading i used to do... but if i find the one i will explore everything, even a million pages if she put them up... yes, so that's the excitement and disappointment...

how are you? :)