no dog, no girl

it's a night almost alone, the cat remains, but cats suck up all the attention and loving they can get and then disappear into the night as opposed to dogs... dogs are almost constantly needy... or maybe that's hunger... anyway, jackson and happiness are away for the night so there is me and curious and nothing to do but rest after a long week of high stress work and more to do than there was time to do it... the good, or actually great news is the survey fever is over and we did fine and work is gonna stay on the shelf until monday (barring emergencies) and tonight, alone, i shall write until i sleep... many entries to cross, or at least catch up on, rivers, ya know?...

the music tapes lost in toronto (i didn't say stolen, but the cruelty remains) call out to me tonight... and so it goes, and so it goes, and the only one who knows doesn't really care, even though she thinks she does... we all believe what we want to believe and delusion is easier than reality, so who cares...

this isn't over...