ridiculousooooh!

yeah, she made a joke, it serves me right for keeping my shoes next to the couch upon which i've slept for months since they tore up the walls in my room and never adequately fixed them... you're welcome for the clean up... i think she forgot to say thank you... did i mention i was feeling under appreciated?... the big stain in the middle of the living room will be an unpleasant reminder... worse than all the other stains... so yeah, seriously, sometimes the giving i do feels quite ridiculous... perhaps because it is... perhaps not even perhaps... but it's still what i choose to do because it feels better than being selfish or insensitive or any other way and it is who i am and nobody is going to change me (and so many have tried, some even deliberately)... someday someone will surprise me by actualizing the sensitivity and generosity of self and the tears of joy will wash away all the years of living with humans...

yeah, i'm that special...

narf! :P