totally frustrating softball

there was desperation in the coaches texts all week as he begged for more players and i should have remembered why he has so much trouble putting a team together, no less a solid team, but i really want to play softball and i really wanted to get on a team around the corner and i like playing with jackson and she is on this team so i said yes... and tonight was the first game... jackson was out of town... not enough people showed up on time (often the coach does not show up on time) and we were penalized an out in the first inning, so when one girl struck out with bases loaded, the story of the game was evident... that girl could not throw the ball more than halfway back from home plate so i had to field a ground ball with every pitch and after thirty or so pitches my back was not happy... worse than that, i could not get into any kind of rhythm so i pitched poorly the first inning and never really felt comfortable on the mound... second inning the coach put that girl in right field and i didn't walk anybody after that, but there were several home runs hit to right field because she couldn't field at all and there were a few others at the same beginner level... coach forgot to put me in the lineup at first which would have been another out if the other team wanted to say something but since they won 22-2 in three innings, they don't care how many rules we didn't follow...

we played the fourth best team in this five team league... yes, the other three teams are better than the team we played... we don't have anyone who can play well, only one outfielder who can catch the ball but no outfielder or infielder who handles ground balls well so i expect to play very few innings and no one who can throw the ball well and no one who understands defending second base and this is going to be a very frustrating season... our first base girl caught one ball so every ground ball except one hit to me was at least a single and a few were doubles when the other team realized that she didn't chase the ball once it got by her... when i am one of the best players on a team, we do not belong in a competitive co-ed league with guys who can hit the ball hard to all fields and out of the park at will and girls who can hit the fence and most have speed and field well and most of all, they know the game... we don't do any of that, so paying $40 to swing the bat once a week and play three innings a week is gonna make for a very frustrating season...

at least i don't have to drive far... so let it go...