and then there is sleeping and food too

yes, so... without the softball and with the frustration of home (just cuz i don't vent as much as i did last month doesn't mean anything's changed), i just laid back and closed my eyes and fell asleep and almost slept through the night cuz that is best for everyone i suppose... i don't need the stress of silence about the finances and jackson does not need the stress of my bleeding to death (financially)... and the space remains messed up, cluttered, and needing repairs that the management seem to ignore or pretend they don't know about... the renovations have backfired on them badly as the place looks cheap because the work was sloppy and they tore up the grounds so there is no grass or landscaping... their goal was to create a luxury community but they failed miserably... anyway, jackson avoids and ignores a lot better than i do and she self destructs when i confront her or the messed up space we live in so we are in silent running mode for now... avoid avoid avoid... ignore ignore ignore... nite nite nite... eggplant burgers and rice was yummy...

narf...