ok, i will not write the specifics out of respect for jackson's privacy but it is effecting my affect and sleep and life enough to become my reality and i will write about my reality to maintain my integrity and sanity... it is frustrating, draining, distracting, and definitely uncomfortable enough to raise the tension and stress energy and so, here we are, awake... i don't sleep away uncomfortable thoughts... i don't rest easy in denial or delusion... the only way to rest is to separate, to leave the person providing the frustration behind and sail on off into my life without them... i do not want to do that to jackson... she would not be in a good place if i did... yet, she denies it... as do most who live in denial or delusion, she pushes anyone who does not accept the denial or delusion away, no matter the risk...
sucks to be me tonight...
narf...
Monday, April 28, 2014
not sleeping much tonight
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- ridiculousooooh!
- getting old or just tired
- eating late, sleepless again
- without sleep, performance fails
- not sleeping much tonight
- softball follies, human foibles
- and an old blog is new again
- myspace saves itself
- left off, left out, left overs...
- as friends divide
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- the continuing saga of time passages
- one of the blanker times
- farting dogs
- the heat is hot
- relationships
- this may take a few minutes to a few hours
- the next level
- sleepy
- more sports and food
- sports and food (and softball)
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musical distractions
If people had visible signs or meters that told something about them, what would you want it to tell you?
dumb poll (above), smart responders
all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...
SEARCH ME
the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)
WORK ... JOB ... MUSIC ... LOVE ... SOFTBALL ... KA ... 42 ... LOL ... LAM ... LAA ... ... ... ...
WORK ... JOB ... MUSIC ... LOVE ... SOFTBALL ... KA ... 42 ... LOL ... LAM ... LAA ... ... ... ...
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