left off, left out, left overs...

not sure why both kids are out here with me tonight as this is jackson's first day back from her out of town vacation, but both curious and happiness were awake and waiting for me when i got home around 2:30am and then continue to hang out awake with me here now... they have not done this in weeks or maybe months, so maybe there's a secret animal reason i am not perceiving at the moment... happiness does not seem to be able to get comfortable even after i took him for a walk and he has whimpered more than usual... curious seems to be following him around as if she knows something is going to happen and she doesn't want to miss it... maybe she senses he needs some support... in any case, i ought to turn off the lights and close my eyes and welcome sleep soon cuz we have a must win softball game tomorrow (we are 9-3 after blowing a game last week and that puts us in fourth place again, just like last year, and we need to win our last two games and home two of the teams ahead of us lose a game each to finish high enough to qualify for the world series... not that we have a team that will go anywhere near doing well in the world series, but it's fun to travel to different cities and play in tournaments so in spite of the frustrations on the field, i hope we get to go to dallas this year... last year was fun - we qualified because two of the teams that finished ahead of us did not want to go... maybe that'll happen this year)...

it was a fun night, yummy food, and we almost picked up where we left off, but we didn't get to play cards for some reason and it was also sad and disappointing as there were too many missing friends for foolish reasons... it was not the usual card playing frivolity but then, that is to be expected as there was discomfort and it will take some time to acclimate to the changes that come when a group of friends break up when one is foolish enough to do something stupid enough to have to spend some time in jail... humans love to build walls of judgments and hurt feelings rather than live by their ideals and philosophies (or religions, you know, that thing about forgiveness and letting some god judge?)... i have no time and little patience for the drama, so i welcome the positivity and go where i have time to go... life else days leaves little time for long nights out anyway as i have that sad softball team on friday nights and am exhausted or at least not in the mood to travel anywhere most weeknights and that leaves only part of weekends for socializing... friends adjust and create positivity, others presume or judge and create negativity... i am drawn to the former and avoid the latter and life goes on...

so on goes the air conditioner, the patio door closes, off goes the light, and off to la la land i sail...

nite nite :)