balancing the precarious

ok, tough day... sanity is such a precarious balance... as is emotion... and survival, for that matter... watching wild nature shows probably didn't help, but then, probably better than watching violent criminal shows... don't need any fuel for negativity like anger or revenge even if ethics would support the fact that some people deserve to be brought down... yeah, tough day...

meanwhile, i have the bestest friend and roommate right now who provides the most wonderful distractions and support and tonight, dinner and a surprise bag of goodies and she stayed up waaay past her bedtime to play... a heart of gold... that's her, but what she brought home was a book of variety puzzles and games (to distract me between sending out new resumes and cover letters while waiting for responses to arrive), a spritz puffer ball (weird fun looking fun stress ball, also might produce odd massages), flarp noise putty (yeah, fart sounds in a squishy silly-putty-ish glob in a can), a can of silly string, a code red, a pack of kit kats, bags of doritos, and one of the funniest silly cards ever all in this gift bag like it's my birthday or something... see, she understands that any day is a party, spontaneous gifts are precious, and being children is one of the best things we can do to enjoy life... living with her is a lifesaver at this point (keep hope in front of the fear then, dummy... ummmm, ok)...

so hang in there, right kid?