waking smiling

still happy sad though... yes, there is a deeper sadness finally spreading into everything as it is caused not by a single event (the spark was jackson and happiness moving away (irony in his name, aye?... the method to my madness should never be doubted i suppose, but that only scratched away the happy coating on the gaping hole... shhhh, don't want to depress us, do we?... smirking is so inappropriate at this point, ya know?... so stop laughing, right?... lol... lam), no, the cause of the sad is the unrequited love, the long term loneliness, the gaping hole in my heart waiting for so long for the one (or at least someone who understands that dream and is close enough to be the one until the one comes along)...

heavy, huh?...

well, gonna have some fun now... just wiping sleep from my eyes, actually... gonna check facebook and youtube and twitter and a few other places in the hope some of comments actually inspired a response (might even check my own blogs and email, which is rare as i expect nothing here or there, which might be part of that deeper sad, i suppose... yeah, keep supposing kid, that's what you're good at... who can name that twisted movie reference?... twisted in that it is not the precise movie line, but close... see?... already having fun, nyuk nyuk nyuk)...

no matter what you've got going on inside, make your labor day fun, ok? :)