fell asleep anyway

but only very briefly... an extended commercial for x-factor woke me after the giants game and then i got torn by all the stuff on the tube... a football game that would effect the fantasy league i am in... other stuff i am into mostly cuz of jackson (the cubs game, the jags game, the closer, and more), some stuff i like, the 9/11 drama exploitation and propaganda shows (yeah, i know, memorials, sure), stuff i need to do (like laundry, clean up, some dished, pack boxes, and more), writing, facebook, other internet, and a few more tv distractions... watching the 9/11 stuff for now, advanced loneliness could be provoked for many reasons here (nyc memories, emo-not-shared, and most of all, just seeing things so differently, being me)...

hung out with the team after the game, though did not quite feel like i belonged (my own stupidity mostly cuz i didn't bring food or drink or anything, but there's also that lack of a personal friend, no less a closer personal friend missing from everything i do... not even meaning the one in this case)... of course i am missing jackson more than usual because it is softball sunday so i texted her about all the softball and shows she's into and stuff i thought she'd respond to (pathetic of me, perhaps, but you know how i want to and try to stay in touch with people i adopt, so whatever, right?)... and wah wah wah who cares, right...

sometimes i don't like sundays as much as i used to...

of course that is partly cuz there's work tomorrow and the weekends are just not long enough... time to do laundry, i'll sleep some other time... ate way too many chocolate chip cookies tonight...

so how was your day? :)