Wednesday, May 6, 2009

eat = energy = no sleep

i have no clue why you came here, but odds are... neither do you :)

here!... here!... ye too!... this one is on repeat, so click and see why

what?...

i have no idea, but the spambots have found this one...

anyway, cuz of the games, ya know... gonna be a long sleepy day tomorrow that will test will power and so on and crap like that... are you having fun at 4am too?...


3 comments:

j said...

i was sleeping at 4 am, so yes, it was a lot of fun, i think... because sleeping is often fun since dreams accompany sleeping and you just never know where you might go and who you might see and what you might do... which has always made me wonder which side is really living...

i just stopped in to say "hi" ... so "hi" and

hugs

Anonymous said...

and i stopped to let j know i am deeply sorry for the asshole i was during my florid manic trip, but on the plus side it robbed me of all my life so i got punished rightfully so... it also showed me AGAIN that spiritually speaking i haven't suffered at all yet and i am a baby who begs for mommy as soon as something goes wrong; of course mommy hasn't been around since 11, but that doesn't stop me from crying.

candoor said...

wow, yay, coolness for appearances and positivity and above all else, honesty - no matter how much hurt is involved...

i screwed up all my intimate relationships wanting a mommy and logically believed that because i was an unconditional daddy i could get the balance but unconditional really is an all but idyllic impossible dream (and me, being a rational quixotic realistic dreamer, believe it is possible if i find the one who believes as much as i do and who actually can actualize the unconditionality in the physical world enough to make it work and i have hope that there is another person in the world who does and can)... still, i did ask for too much from the few i chose to believe in...

hugs to you both too...

whether this is a realistic though or cynical though, i am a ful fledged dreamer no doubt, but i believe that when we start letting ourselves enjoy our dreams enough to be happy enough with them to settle for them as dreams, we fall into the trap of our own minds and illusion becomes enough... i've been there many times and for long periods in this life, each time telling myself i was paying dues or healing or owing it to someone (and csny sing almost cut my hair and harry sings there was only one choice and when i really hear, i know truth wakes me up) but i was bullshitting myself in a stagnating stupor of apathy and ambivalence and maybe even fear of being betrayed again...

your words merge together into one comment to provide powerful thought responses rebounding in my head... i agree, i disagree, i relate, i don't relate, i understand, i do not... it all makes so much sense in my mind even if my words come out like nonsense...

thank you so much more than you know...

please know your value to me - and may this value help you feel more value in yourselves...

:)

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