updated the windows experience

i haven't explored all the updates i installed and i stopped a few of them because i don't particularly like the idea of windows live wanting to be connected to microsoft all the time and sending information back and forth from my computer without letting me know what the computer is sending or why or what is being done with the information... microsoft is so trying to be big brother as in brave new world and 1984 and i wonder how much the government is a part of it and whether it would be better or sorse if they were cuz, after all, microsoft does have a monopoly on so many aspects of our online and technological lives and monopolies are illegal, so the government has some reason for allowing it, just as they allowed ma bell and other monopolies to last so long...

we won't ask why there are not clearly publisized repercussions for the big companies declaring bankruptcy after receiving billions of dollars of our taxes... i mean, would the government give me a few hundred thousand dollars and then let me get away with declaring bankrupcy and not paying it back?...

i am so loving dia's voice today (yes, linking meg and dia again)... and so appreciate her and dia and the band taking me back into the musical imagination that has helped me survive the human madness all around me all these years)... she's got hold of my head and i willingly give it cuz she gives me hope, imaginary or not, that the cynicism has not permanently taken over my mind... in so many ways she is such a little girl and has so much growing to do... but in so many ways she is an old soul who i wouldn't mind following constantly very closely for a while... i settle for following occasionally from a distance cuz that's life at the moment and i enjoy what it is...

diving back into the words now... celebrate, will ya? :)