waking 2am

yes, there is a song that goes with that title somewhere in cyberspace... i check my phone for the time and realize i still have not received any email since friday and realize that i changed my password on friday (a forced change by the company) and i never changed the password on the phone so i try to remember the new password and after fifteen minutes of trying i remember the new password and enter it and in comes the flood of emails and i read and by then, i am awake and falling back to sleep was not happened (the perils of going to bed at 8pm, or earlier, even) and so here i am rambling on about it, whatever it is...

and in the living room i find happiness who wakes when i turn on the little light and i realize he has not been out since dinner so i put on a sweater-shirt and shoes and out we go and he does all he needs to do (and he needed to do everything) and upon returning from a long brisk walk (about 48 degrees outside) i see he has no water so i fill his bowl and he laps up water big time and he checks on jackson and finds her door still closed (she went to bed right after we got home from the appointment i drove her to because she was not a happy camper because her license was suspended for not paying a speeding ticket and she says she doesn't have the money for it which is odd as she hasn't given me money for rent this month, but... she does not do money well and my paying her way is enabling and i am struggling with finding a reasonable way to stop doing it but when i mention that to her as i did today she shuts down and literally buries herself under the covers behind closed doors and she didn't even take her dog in with her, not to mention she put herself to bed without dinner) so happiness returns to the living room again looking sad (he's walked into the hallway toward her closed door at least a dozen times before i went to bed and since i've been awake again because he's a dog and forgets he's been shut out of his bedroom bed) and he comes back out here and curls on on his living room bed again...