i really wanted to stay in touch

from the first people i knew as a young child through today, my intention and desire was to keep in touch... slowly but surely i learned to fail at fulfilling that desire and i realized the truth in the saying there are no perfect people, just perfect intentions... so i can make a list (and check it twice, even) of all the people i wanted to stay in touch with (and all the girls i've loved before) and i could even write a song about it and write blog entries or personal private letters to each and every one (as i used to do all those years ago) and without a path to send them on, they are just messages in bottles floating around the imaginary (or cyber) seas... used to be there were websites dedicated to those sort of rhymes and letters (until att deleted them)... and starting that garden (that used to be known as the garden of ones mostly in reference to the individual one on one communications the writings there were intended to be) just has not seemed to be a task i felt motivated to undertake (even when i had time), likely cuz i started so many times before and so rarely did anyone find my messages in bottles...

for most of this life i dedicated a few hours a day to writing... some of that writing time was dedicated to writing to people i wanted to stay in touch with and slowly or suddenly, people drifted away... i never completely gave up hope and still have hope to share memories and catch up and make some new memories, i just reduced the time and energy i put into the dream of possibly getting back in touch with all the people i wanted to stay in touch with and moved on to enjoy life without them... if you are out there, hope you find this someday...

imagine all the people, aye? :)