i want you to read

there are entries floating through this month that i want you to read but i just don't feel like re-reading and linking them tonight so you'll just have to find them yourself is you are interested and care and all that jazz and if not, oh well, these catch up months can be quite ambivalent too... lonelier than usual, i suppose... wanting to share more and not having any real sharing going on... even as i spend more time with other people than i have in years what with jackson laid up with her healing foot so she's almost always home and depends on me driving her around for everything... and others, well, it's giving giving giving and i want some me time, and some serious nurturing would ne nice... though i am so very challenging to nurture... i know, but nobody knows the troubles i've seen and all that jazz too...

hungry but eating too much... eating out too much and spending way too much money... wish jackson would find a job that pays enough for her to pay her share, but at least she is giving some money for rent more consistently lately... a couple of years went by without anything and it drained a lot more savings than i'd have liked it too... wah wah wah, i could have changed things but i adopted her and so i'm not complaining... just whining cuz i'm lonely and want more than usual... needy?... not really, just wanting... you had to be there, actually...

other entries are a lot more amusing... or confusing, but in a subtle humorous way... at least to those who love me... and the very wise... and geniuses, geniuses love me... so you must love me, right?...

narf :)