was asleep

seeply, sweetly, falling into the beautiful abyss of slumbers and then, the phone... too sleepy to respond, but then, the phone again... dear precious needed to talk... she does not like living alone and even though she lives in someone's house, it's still alone emotionally and mostly physically too... i understand... while i've got a side that loves being alone, i also crave sharing and partnering and that's why i am out here writing so much, after all... it's not just all about ego and creative play, ya know... yeah, gotta love (caring is a verb, for real)...

so i'll crash tomorrow, maybe, i hope...

and even though i sacrifice the stuff i want to give more away and even though i sacrifice sleep and health to give more time, it's a wonderful feeling being able to help, even if it's just a little for a moment, being needed... the void of family will probably always draw me to those who might need me and maybe that keeps me alone, for how many people want to (or will) give it all away anytime as i do... somebody, the one, ya know?... all i've ever needed......

ok, craig ferguson will laugh me to sleep with odd thoughts and skewed perspectives that make total sense to me because he's not really completely human either, or something like that... i wish i could help fix everything everywhere cuz there is so much confusion and so much is broken in humanity, but i'll just keep doing the best i can picking up pices of scattered hearts and minds and dreams and while i don't live all of mine, this is one of mine, so i do live one of mine and that is a wonderful thing for me... keeps the hope alive...

was it good for you? (so silly (dorkishly), i am :)