home or away

while a dull softball practice was part of the late afternoon and evening, the title has less to do with softball than the price of tea in china or chico marx piano playing, but that's besides the point as i've all but forgotten what the title of this entry was referring to originally when i typed it on the title line some time back before i was distracted by dinner which was eggplant parm again and i still haven't begun to ture of it in spite of eating it at least several times a month with a health nut grain bread made into garlic bread and water though i still ate a larger portion than necessary because i lose track of how much i eat when i am saving dishes and money by eating directly out of the family container that it cooks in but at least i stayed away from the sugar drinks so far tonight at that point and then remembering to do the laundry and some nonsense on tv that involved some scantily clad sexy bodies dancing close and some family guy and something or other so when i returned here to this box the title was only vaguely familiar except that i remember thinking that though it could easily be associated with softball or any sport it was not meant to be and while rambling on like this (though it could have been something to do with the 28.5 ounce frappuccino i started sipping through the straw just before sitting down here to start writing this entry which ought to be a special entry because it is, after all, a saturday night entry and saturday night is supposed to be a special night and even though i am a non-conformist from way back i do want to find social life and love and romance and all that so going out with people when people go out is part of the compromise i accept while alone and hoping to find someone to share life and saturday nights like this one but i may be losing my way in this parenthese so i will step out now even more suddenly than i stepped in) about it i suddenly remembered that it was meant to be about whether to stay home or go out on the weekend as i am staying home this weekend which is quite different from the pattern of going out on weekends that i was experiencing for quite a while now but obviously i felt like resting and babbling rather than socializing tonight...

huh?...

yeah...

i'm out there jerry and i'm loving every minute of it :)

wish you were here :)

especially if you get it :)