about time may be too late

so last night it was different cuz i slept... and tonight, instead of sleeping i checked email cuz jackson said the sunday coach sent an email and feeling unfairly reprimanded, i found myself ranting in emails to jackson with nothing to say to the coach that would keep me on the team... so i ranted to jackson and in a private blog and ultimately, i don't know what i am doing about the coach's ultimatums or whether the bullshit is worth playing softball with them... they are not a team, never have been, and the coach finally expressed frustration that i've expressed to him for years... his mistake was expressing it to me as if i am part of the problem... insulting... disrespectful... and bullshit... so anyway, that is why i am still awake... frustrated, even angry, because i am tired of being used and disrespected... and now the dog is awake and staring and scratching and going bananas, so i would be awake if i did get to sleep earlier... how many ways can i spell frustration tonight... not counting...

chocolate trinity ice cream helped...

narf...